I don’t really feel like writing right now, but I have to.
I haven’t written regularly in some time, and I’ve been meaning to get started again. This afternoon was going to be a time to write, and I even have something I want to write on, and I will, but I really don’t want to.
Maybe, “I don’t want to” is not the right words. I don’t feel qualified to.
Often I have a desire to write or create, and then something happens. Something that shows I still wrestle with the sin nature in my heart. I mess up, I fall down, I fail, and then comes all the doubts and questions. All the whispers in my ear that make me feel that I cannot write about my faith, my walk with God, or what God has shown me because I’ve acted faithless, I’ve stumbled in my walk, and I went against what God has shown me. Who am I to write to encourage others?
But today, I will still write. Because if only perfect people preached, sung, or wrote, then we would have no books, no sermons, and no songs. So today, I refuse to follow the whispers into self doubt, and I look to the cross that says I am qualified because of the work of Christ. It is not self reliance or my perfection that makes me able to share and write, but it is instead my God that lifts my head and leads me on. And today, I will chose to follow him!
So with that, I have some Sunday reflections to share.
One of our worship songs this morning struck me in a new way. The song is Whom Shall I Fear by Chris Tomlin, and the phrase that struck me was in the chorus:
And nothing formed against me shall stand
You hold the whole world in your hands
I’m holding on to your promises
You are faithful
You are faithful
In the past, when hearing this song and the phrase, “nothing formed against me shall stand,” I tended to have thoughts of God destroying opposition in our lives. As if there is an outside force coming against us, and God will see us through it by overcoming that opposition. I believe that it is true that God does this, but this morning my thoughts went to a different place. I got to thinking about situations in our lives that flood over us. As if the dam has failed, and the rushing waters are eroding away our very souls. What of those experiences or situations that seem to not only stand against us, but completely overcome us? What do we do then? Do we still hold on to God's promises in those moments?
When life’s pains and struggles are seeming to overwhelm us, do we still believe that God is faithful and good or do we give into despair and relinquish all hope?
Do we give in and claim, “nothing good can come from this,” or do we cling to Christ and suffer with him crying, “I don’t know what or how, but I trust good is to come, because you said it will.” (Romans 8:28)
Do we let the questions change our thoughts to say, “this suffering must be God’s wrath on me because of my sin” or do we grab hold of the reality that all of God’s wrath was poured out on Christ on the cross, and tell ourselves, “God, I don’t really see it all, but I believe this pain is your grace towards me, and that your discipline is tempered with love.” (Hebrews 12:3-11)
So whatever you are dealing with today, see what his word says about it, and hold on to that reality! Do not let the voices of this world define what is happening to you. Let the voice of God’s word speak into your situation, and don’t let go of it! Let our savior’s words speak truth into what is happening to you today.
Because today, I wanted to buy into the lie that I was not qualified to share this, but the reality is that I was chosen by him, not because of who I am, but because of who he is. And he has made me blameless and holy, and it brings him pleasure to call me his son and my desire is to glorify him! (Ephesians 1:3-6)
I pray his grace is with you, and that nothing formed against you will stand, because God will use even the pain and trails you are in to serve you. Even when you cannot see it, root your trust in his word. He is faithful!